Thursday, April 06, 2006 @ 7:27 PM
dOwN...
Today... was another weird day... yupp.. the day just felt really weird.. the time was going slowly... tooooooooo slow.... especially slow.... so after the first recess, i did not smile anymore.. yupp.. i became super restless.. first few times this happened.. i began to think about things again.. haha.. i was thinking... its so stupid to do something u don't like.. really.. they always say SPEND UR TIME WISELY... yes yes.. but why am i doing this now? why and i spending my mondays to fridays doing something i really really detest.. why do i sometimes get scolded for doing something i dun like to do?? why is every child doing the same thing i hate to do? haiya.. i dunno la.. i just dun like to be forced to do things i dun like.. sry.. im just venting my anger a little bit here..
So i did not smile for almost the whole day... yupp..
esther:"ni hai hao ba??"
me:"hah.. mm.. ya hai ok.."
esther:"bu yao na me shang xin la.."
me:"wei shen me??"
esther:"yao xiao cai bi jiao hao."
me:"huh why leh?"
esther:"dunno.. kai xin jiu shi bi jiao hao la.."
haha.. ke ai hor she.. haiz.. shuai jie jiu shi shuai jie la.. anyways.. i tried putting my hands on the table, closing my eyes and putting my head on my hands.. but i just heard the whole class chattering and laughing and joking arnd wif each other... haiz...
The 5/7-ners were like that before... What the hell happened?
Yeah... wat the hell happened to the class of 2004.. what?, it dissapeared? I realised something.. the thing i hate the most in this world, is actually time..
I started to talk onli after sch.. which is b4 remedial la.. became very fidgity...haha..
ok la.. enuff.. i haf to accept the fact that life's liddat.. anyway.. i read kiat shing brudder de blog.. he wrote tt he scolded gary because gary complained abt something being heavy.. den later kiat shing de brudder reflected and thought tt it was wrong of him to push him too hard so fast... he apologised to kiat shing on his blog... i think it was very nice lar.. haha.. dunno la.. but ya la.. i mean... that was something my sisters would nvr do to me la... yupp... dunno if kiat shing's brother will read this ( dun think he will =T )but still...admire him for his responsibility lor =)...
My class is has the best math result for the first WHOLE SEMESTER.. wahahah.. quite shocked u noe.. wif me arnd they still can get first.. so peifu my class standard sia..haha.. gtg le.. bubbye =))..
nobody really is arnd me when i needed somebody the most... the most important ppl weren't even in sight... haiz.. i guess.. im still not used to the life now.. i still dun get why there is a need to change.. i thought tt everything would be okay.. i even told my frens not to worry.. but... now... everything is different.. IT IS NOT OKAY... why is it that i don't feel loved anymore by my grp of frens... yea... im crying now.. SATISFIED?
haiz.. i probably just need time.. ARGH I HATE THE WORD TIME...