Friday, September 07, 2007 @ 3:59 PM
had so many things to write about.
i don't know why all of a sudden i dunno wat to write.
thinking about too many things at the same time i guess.
i dunno wat you're angry about.
well actually i kind of know la.
its because
im not caring enough?
ur ______ friends are much more caring?
much much better?
they understand how u feel?
i suck as a friend?
all i think about is guys?
i didn't make all of these up
you said it urself.
so yea.
i guess thats about tt.
about why u're angry about me.
i dun understand.
but yea.
so tts it.
i went to sch at 8 today.
we did nothing until 9.
we practised and practised and practised like shit until 12.30.
we had one hr break to go down to 85 to eat lunch
when the fucking sun is so fucking hot.
he followed us since he came early.
we went to the shop to get all our food.
u called and u asked me to help u to tell our senior tt u'll be late
and that u're chionging up the hill.
i told u tt we were at 85.
u were angry tt we didn't call u to tell you.
ok. really. im really sorry.
den
u came and u looked really pissed.
so he decided to go up with u.
we decided to bring our food up with u all.
i asked u to cool down
since u looked so damn pissed
and...
u became more angry.
thats the whole story.
.
.
.
.
.
i... really dunno wat to say.
i guess. i was not caring enough..
.....????
sorry... that i somehow made u angry.
i just can't say in front of ur face.
i really dunno how to do it.
but.. look la.
u show us lian se kan.
we very happy meh..?
u didn't haf to be so obvious
when u said FUCK U FUCK U FUCK U
trying to act like u were just saying it for fun.
haha. its kind of funny.
...
i guess..
.
.
.
.
.
just now the sms u sent
i wanted to reply u
but wat the hell.
it'll just make things worse
so..
wat for.
i'll be serious wif you.
i still want this friendship.
but..
its up to you i guess.
and the worst is
u say all i care about are guys.
and i guess u came up with tt because just now i was toking to those 2 guys.
but hey look.
they were the only 2 ppl that approached and talk to me.
besides ___ _____
which, hey look, is a girl.
you also nvr tok to me.
den when the 2 guys tok to me
i sit there keep quiet and gao zi bi meh?
come on la.....
im not tt a perfect person.
wat more a perfect friend.
i can't gif u wat u want.
really sorry about tt.
really. no kidding.
lol.
its kind of funny isn't it.
one day you're so damn close.
laughing together like its nobody's business.
the next day its like
you know this person
u dunno if u shld talk to her anot.
like theres this wall in between.
and none of us is fucking trying to break it.
everytime i try to make eye contact
u roll ur eyes away.
...
its kind of funny i guess..
childishly funny
immaturely funny
lame-ishly funny
.
.
.
.
.
i guess i shld say sorry right?
since u said before tt u were always the one that starts a conversation to cool things down
whenever we haf a fight.
but saying sorry for doing something i...
really dun understand why it happened.
i..
argh -.- just gif me some more time.
to think things out
to clear the stupid problems i haf in my head
to think wat is the next step i shld take
to learn to be a more caring friend.
im just so darn tired...
both physically and mentally..
sometimes it fucking hurts to wonder where i really belong..
i'll just drown myself in homework..
and i hope everything will be alright..
.
.
.
tried walking home closing my eyes just now.
the path was so uneven; i almost tripped.
the sound was loud and piercing; it was so scary.
and everything was dark; somehow i felt cold and lonely.
but i'll still try to smile my way through :]
cause its unfair to those ppl arnd me if i gif them lian se kan :]
sorry for not replying tags today :]
i don't know why all of a sudden i dunno wat to write.
thinking about too many things at the same time i guess.
i dunno wat you're angry about.
well actually i kind of know la.
its because
im not caring enough?
ur ______ friends are much more caring?
much much better?
they understand how u feel?
i suck as a friend?
all i think about is guys?
i didn't make all of these up
you said it urself.
so yea.
i guess thats about tt.
about why u're angry about me.
i dun understand.
but yea.
so tts it.
i went to sch at 8 today.
we did nothing until 9.
we practised and practised and practised like shit until 12.30.
we had one hr break to go down to 85 to eat lunch
when the fucking sun is so fucking hot.
he followed us since he came early.
we went to the shop to get all our food.
u called and u asked me to help u to tell our senior tt u'll be late
and that u're chionging up the hill.
i told u tt we were at 85.
u were angry tt we didn't call u to tell you.
ok. really. im really sorry.
den
u came and u looked really pissed.
so he decided to go up with u.
we decided to bring our food up with u all.
i asked u to cool down
since u looked so damn pissed
and...
u became more angry.
thats the whole story.
.
.
.
.
.
i... really dunno wat to say.
i guess. i was not caring enough..
.....????
sorry... that i somehow made u angry.
i just can't say in front of ur face.
i really dunno how to do it.
but.. look la.
u show us lian se kan.
we very happy meh..?
u didn't haf to be so obvious
when u said FUCK U FUCK U FUCK U
trying to act like u were just saying it for fun.
haha. its kind of funny.
...
i guess..
.
.
.
.
.
just now the sms u sent
i wanted to reply u
but wat the hell.
it'll just make things worse
so..
wat for.
i'll be serious wif you.
i still want this friendship.
but..
its up to you i guess.
and the worst is
u say all i care about are guys.
and i guess u came up with tt because just now i was toking to those 2 guys.
but hey look.
they were the only 2 ppl that approached and talk to me.
besides ___ _____
which, hey look, is a girl.
you also nvr tok to me.
den when the 2 guys tok to me
i sit there keep quiet and gao zi bi meh?
come on la.....
im not tt a perfect person.
wat more a perfect friend.
i can't gif u wat u want.
really sorry about tt.
really. no kidding.
lol.
its kind of funny isn't it.
one day you're so damn close.
laughing together like its nobody's business.
the next day its like
you know this person
u dunno if u shld talk to her anot.
like theres this wall in between.
and none of us is fucking trying to break it.
everytime i try to make eye contact
u roll ur eyes away.
...
its kind of funny i guess..
childishly funny
immaturely funny
lame-ishly funny
.
.
.
.
.
i guess i shld say sorry right?
since u said before tt u were always the one that starts a conversation to cool things down
whenever we haf a fight.
but saying sorry for doing something i...
really dun understand why it happened.
i..
argh -.- just gif me some more time.
to think things out
to clear the stupid problems i haf in my head
to think wat is the next step i shld take
to learn to be a more caring friend.
im just so darn tired...
both physically and mentally..
sometimes it fucking hurts to wonder where i really belong..
i'll just drown myself in homework..
and i hope everything will be alright..
.
.
.
tried walking home closing my eyes just now.
the path was so uneven; i almost tripped.
the sound was loud and piercing; it was so scary.
and everything was dark; somehow i felt cold and lonely.
but i'll still try to smile my way through :]
cause its unfair to those ppl arnd me if i gif them lian se kan :]
sorry for not replying tags today :]