Saturday, November 10, 2007 @ 12:30 AM
10 NOVEMBER 2007
i dunno. i feel weird .__________________________.
i remember sec one. i had this thing in my head:
i dun care. im not a trip science kind of person. even if i can get into trip sci, i will go to double science.
so yea. i didn't do well for all my tests in sec one. even on the last day of sec one, my mum had to come to sch to see mr tong cos i only got 65%.
den somehow i got into 2B. everybody was quite different. everybody seemed to score well for even the smallest class test. but still. i didn't really care, cos i was just determind to go to double science.
den at the end of the year, kind of woke up abit. decided to study abit. i wanted to get the qualifications for trip sci, but still, get into double science. i just wanted to show ppl tt i had the potential to get into trip sci.
and den, i didn't really reach the qualifications lar. my % was 68.2 onli, and my sci got 69 overall. but qianyi wanted to go to trip sci hist. so did yunxuan. qianyi didn't haf anybody to follow her. i really didn't want to leave her alone. and i really really really wanted to get into same class as soo yun xuan.
so, my first choice: trip sci hist. same as qianyi. same as yunxuan. dunno if i was happy or not.
den. today yunxuan called me at 10+ am. she told me tt i got into trip sci hist. qianyi also. but she didn't get in.
at first i didn't really think much abt yunxuan not getting in trip sci hist. cos can appeal ma. but also cos i was really stun tio. i got into trip sci hist? HUH??
for the past few days i kept on thinking tt i had no chance getting into trip sci hist. i mean soooooooooo many ppl want to get into trip sci hist. and all their results better den mine. want to get into trip sci hist, impossible lar, seriously.
den i went to sch wif qianyi to look at the board ourselves. really alot of people got into trip sci hist.
all along i wanted double sci. i told myself i won't be able to cope wif the studying environment and all the pressure in trip sci. i still remember talking to ben last time, and den he kept on telling me to take double sci. and he made me even more sure abt my choice abt wanting double sci.
and den now. i am in triple science history.
i should feel happy rite? so many ppl want to get into trip sci, ppl like xiao cao, yunxuan and deb. but somehow the whole day i feel damn weird. i haf no blardy idea why.
been thinking the whole day if i should appeal for double sci. den i tink,
wat abt qianyi? i cannot pangseh her ma.
my mum seems pretty proud tt i made it into trip sci. i dun want to dissapoint her.
its abit stupid, appealing for double sci, when u actually made it into trip sci -.-
BUDDEN AGAIN..
the studying environment in trip sci is really very different from the studying environment in doub sci. and i know i will doub sci life more. i mean. not so much pressure. and i cannot take pressure .__________.
i cannot guarantee that i can cope wif trip sci.
yunxuan is in doub sci. and her doub sci combi is the doub sci combi tt i want.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
WHY DID I EVEN PUT TRIP SCI IN THE FIRST PLACE.
oh yea i forgot -.- its because of qianyi.
BUT STILLLLLLLLL~ I WANTED DOUB SCI WAT~!
i think i really changed alot from sec one. for better or for worse, im not sure. i hate change. i dun want to change anymore. lemme go back to my pri 6 self):
i cannot leave qianyi alone.
i also cannot leave yunxuan alone.
i want my mum to be happy.
i want myself to be happy.
i've got so many things i want to say. i dunno where to begin ._.
you're there too. i don't know if thats a good thing or not.
AH YAH. DUN STUDY BEST LA. QUIT SCHOOL LA!
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
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