Tuesday, April 07, 2009 @ 6:10 PM
7 APRIL 2009
was walking home from bedok mrt just now.
like always, i'ld tap my card and walk down the escalator.
but just now, i realised that there was this mjc girl walking beside me.
it was damn weird.
she was like stalking me or something.
i tried walking faster, den she'ld walk faster too.
and i tried walking slower, den she'ld realise and slow down.
i was like kind of irritated and was already planning to blog about how irritating she was when i came home.
den i suddenly thought of you. and was going to take out my hp to look at my inbox.
but just as i took out my hp,
that mjc girl walked really near. den she said,
"hey, hello. sorry for disturbing you.. but i just want to tell you something."
and i was like, "...oh..... okay."
"i don't know why.. but i have this feeling.. i just have this feeling that God wants me to tell you this.. he just wants me to tell you that he cares about you, and that he loves you alot..."
somehow i knew when she approached me it was going to be something about christianity. like maybe she'll try to convince me to attend her church.
or attend her cell grp (which she did in the later part, but thats another thing).
but at that moment i just felt so stunned.
like. that sentence was so simple.
but at that moment it meant so, so much.
she den started saying that she wants to know abit more abt me,
and so i told her.
and she shared abit about herself too.
after that she decided to walk me home.
which i was abit scared about.
but allowed her to do it anyway.
den while crossing the road halfway,
we stopped in the middle.
and she said,
"okay. just imagine this okay. look at that car. imagine one day you're going home like normal.. just crossing this road as usual. but all of a sudden, you didn't see the car coming, and you just... get banged. and you just die..."
i really pictured it.
i suddenly thought of the many ppl that i love so much.
she said some other stuff too.. but those didn't really get into my head. lol.
but wat really got me thinking was that..
why of all ppl did she come and talk to me?
and of all the times... why a time like now?
if maybe jasmine didn't have to photocopy her yan yu paper before leaving sch..
if i decided to go back home immediately instead of going to simei with jinni and jasmine..
if i decided to take 38 instead of taking mrt from simei..
if just one of the things above really happened..
i wouldn't be able to meet the mj girl.
she wouldn't be able to say those things to me.
i wouldn't be thinking about it so much now.
im just quite shocked that, of all times.
she just had to tell me this now. like, NOW.
i guess i hurt you real bad this time...
and i know along the way i'ld be missing you...